Self-Opposing Factors

I'm only a man and I love the women in my life to a fault
Sentiments gone awry and I don't know what to do anymore
And I honestly think my time has passed, but she says I'm wrong about that
Yeah, Laura disagrees with me on that point, but that's not really saying much
Not to say that what she says doesn't mean anything at all, but she doesn't even know the shit I've put myself through, the shit I still do, or the shit I've done

And I've forgiven myself - I've done that -, but I still feel like they're after me
I don't even know who they are, but the world's out to get me
They chat about it on the street corners because word spreads; nobody knows how fast or why
Everybody knows everybody and the bad omens that come with not keeping to yourself, with taking off her shirt, shut me up
But I've changed and you know that about me, so why are we still talking about the same thing?

Just trying to salvage things from the wreckage that is my life
You know, I do things, but with everything that's done it still doesn't classify as doing them
And that needs to change; I've tried it before, but just don't know how
Oh, well... You don't know either! Nothing's inappropriate in literature; it's just how we use it
So here I am; walking, dancing, totally unaffected by anything in the world, but I'm still not happy